miserable last day

coming to a close....

my sweet baby girl, who you'll always be, no matter how big you get. my wonderful time with you is coming to an end. not to make it sound like one of us is dying!!!! but on wednesday i go back to work full time, which feels similar in my heart, right now! melodramatic, i know, but that's your mama! today i took you to preschool, and as is common on mondays, you wanted to stay with me, because i'm (as you do tell me!) your best friend. you feel this way, even after we've fought for 3 days because you're 3, and you're fighting allergies and not sleeping, because i painted your fingernails wrong, and made you leave the pool when it closed, and dared get in your bed. i wonder how long i'll have left as your best friend? that's why i hate our fights so bad - i know that each one puts us further from the friendship that i desperately want with you. anyway, you didn't want me to leave you, and i didn't want to leave you, and we both had a tough morning. i hope that tonight and tomorrow are better!

and poor baby jack - your world is about to be turned upside down. i know your big sister will take care of you at debbies, and i know debbie will love you, so i'm really just mourning the end of our time together, you, my big gooey gumdrop. as i sit here crying, i also know that i'm a dork who will spend these last days on the computer, and doing laundry, and not soaking up every minute, like i should. will try, i promise!

i'm a nut, what can i say.

Toothache, Ryan's visit

Yesterday was a trial with my headstrong little princess. The day started with Jack still asleep, so I wanted to take advantage of the time, and cuddle with Erin. So I went downstairs, when she was already awake, and crawled into bed with her to cuddle. i opened her shades, and she went OFF on me, to CLOSE them. and it went WAY WAY WAY downhill from there. We fought about brushing teeth, and about breakfast, and about wardrobe, and everything else imagineable, into and after nap, right up to bedtime! Unfortunately, in the middle, we had a playdate w/Taylor at the mall's Bounce House, where Erin whacked her teeth into Taylors head. The teeth were bleeding, so we went to the dentist to have them checked out. So far they look fine, and probably will remain so, but only time will tell! My baby girl is very obviously torn between loving and wanting her mama, but also wanting to establish her independence. It's no fun for either of us!

Jack, on the other hand, is just a big, fat, adorable, gooey baby! Alan & Vanessa came to visit w/baby Ryan, now 8 months old. He & Jack are only 3 lbs apart, and we staged a hysterical boxing match between them - adorable!!! (oh! and little mr. gumdrop slept 9.5 hours wednesday night! YAY!!!!!)

Time flies...

i'm spending my nights working on erin's video footage of years 2-3. this is a giant pain in the neck, though fortunately the new computer is working VERY well. however, i wouldn't trade this effort for the world. there's no better way to end a trying day with a preschooler facing the terrible-threes, than to look back at footage from just a few months ago and realize how DRASTICALLY she's changed. and to hear how often she says your name and wants your attention and help. it really makes me into a pile of mushy sap, crying every night, but it makes me desperate to hang on to every moment while she still likes me and wants me around.

Green Whale, Salamander

today's momentous event - jack's first day in the exersaucer - woo hoo! he loves it, which helps to make up for the trauma he endured, watching the green whale on the swing while i took a quick shower! who knew oceanlife could be so terrifying!

Erin, the genious she is, remembered a day LAST summer when we went hiking, and i got a salamander in my shoe! heck, i THINK it was last summer, but i really don't remember WHEN it was! she sure does though!!!

Silly Hat Day, jump-up

today we had a visitor, joellen, who was newsy as always. jack's an angel, my gumdrop, gooey and sweet with huge grins, and tiny new giggles. it was our first day trying out the johnny-jump-up, which jack thinks is pretty nifty - being able to be upright and see the world! erin is off playing w/her friends at miss debbie's, and at preschool where it is silly hat day. i hope her tiara isn't giving her too much trouble - her first choice, the white hat w/the pink flowers on the trim, was just too itchy!